rob.nester

So, recently I've noticed something - I'm starting to feel very alone.

I don't know if it's a by-product of my own self doubt and paranoia or if I've done something which makes me less desirable to be around, or maybe it's just the fact that my small group of friends are finding their own lives becoming more hectic.

For example, my best friend, the guy I think of as a brother to me rarely calls me. I'm usually the one who has to make the call. I try to understand that he works a lot, and he is married, but I can't help thinking sometimes that if I didn't make the call, he wouldn't. That idea concerns me.

That seems to be a common trend recently. I feel like, with the exception of about three people outside of my immediate family (i.e., mom & dad), the only time I really talk to people are when I call them. I wonder sometimes - if I didn't pick up the phone, would anyone call?

Maybe this is all just the result of me thinking about leaving town so much lately. Maybe I'm projecting my desire to be gone and it's making folks think I am already or something along those lines. All I know is that I miss feeling the way I used to feel; like I had folks who wanted to hang out with me...

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